dr doug says "the solution to pollution is dilution." and i'm feeling pretty polluted. i can't even begin to express how awful this is. i was feeling so good. hubris. i really did think i was invincible with this whole cooked food thing. i really thought it would never even appeal to me again. instead, i've been entertaining cravings and indulging in them. god, it's been awful.
so, today i am taking it easy. i'm at home. i'm in bed. i feel vaguely sick or hungover or similar. i'm drinking a banana-tangerine juice smoothie. i'm going to have lots of water. i'm re-reading the 80-10-10 book. taking a day of rest and recovery. i hope i will feel better soon, and will step out of the grasp of the addiction.
and, honestly, i think the primary addictive ingredient is salt. salt in gourmet raw, salt in cooked food. it's in everything. when you eat 811, it's in nothing. and man, just a taste is all it takes. every cell in my body is bloated and painful.
boyfriend was supposed to come visit me this weekend, but got a last minute photo shoot. it's just as well. i need a few days to rest and recover and take care of myself before the thanksgiving chaos ensues.
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11 years ago
One day at a time Rebecca, one day at a time. Be easy on yourself and just take each day as it comes along. Baby steps lead to giant steps. Beating yourself up over this is only making it worse. Forgive yourself for thinking you ever did anything wrong. You're doing the best you can with what you have to work with at this time. It will get better. You have to believe that.
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